My memories
They haunt me
and taunt me
Never to be relived
It pains me
To think of the love lost
The love I butchered
And betrayed

The present
It beats me
and cheats me
Never truly letting me live
It frustrates me
To think of all I'm doing wrong
Happiness I'm missing
And can never have again

The future
It mocks me
And locks me out
Never to be mine
It scares me
To think of all the pain that still might come
The dreams I won't fulfill
And shall never dream again