The world has lost it's shine
My heart's leaden with tears
My feet stuck in the mud
Can't shake this pain, these fears
The world swirls on around me
While I desperately hide
Curled into a ball
Oblivion on each side
On the inside I scream
But only a whisper escapes
I cry, the world has left me
Emotionally raped
Pressure exploding from the inside
Crushing the breath from my very lungs
Sentenced to fate worse than death
Sentenced to a life prolonged
Torture me no longer
Release me from this plane
What good is breathing, living
When livings only pain

My memories
They haunt me
and taunt me
Never to be relived
It pains me
To think of the love lost
The love I butchered
And betrayed

The present
It beats me
and cheats me
Never truly letting me live
It frustrates me
To think of all I'm doing wrong
Happiness I'm missing
And can never have again

The future
It mocks me
And locks me out
Never to be mine
It scares me
To think of all the pain that still might come
The dreams I won't fulfill
And shall never dream again